To my dearest Zahir -

You have been in my thoughts lately and I’m not sure why. I keep pushing your face away, the memories of the time we spent together, the warm touches we shared. I think you are my ZAHIR but I don’t want to accept it. Logically, this cannot be possible because you have a wife and I have a husband. We live in two separate world and have two very different lives.

I want to keep thinking of you but not like this. You are invading my thoughts and I want you to leave me for awhile. I’m sorry to be impolite but you cannot intrude in my waking hours without permission. I gave you freedom; now it’s your turn to give me mine.

I am glad I can write to you, my ZAHIR – for through this I can “act” on my feelings and dismiss them as fast as I can think about writing it all down.

Please go away for awhile.